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Friday, March 27, 2009

Changes all around us....

Good morning friends. It has been a tough week and last few weeks to be honest. My husband has begun the journey of deploying. He is currently away from home doing training. Yesterday was my birthday so he did sneak back home for the night. I just love him for that. He literally drove 2+ hours home, got home at 8:00 and had to leave at 5:00 this morning. I was so sad for him to leave. I know you do what you have to do but I just want to go on record saying that I hate this and I just want to cry. The loss for me and my children for this next year is overwhelming me right now. I am trying ever so hard to be strong and to just cry out to Jesus for strength. He is the only one who can provide it right now.

On to other topics. We had a great time on our cruise. It was just what we needed. I have so many pictures but I thought I would limit it to these. Here is the beautiful sunrise over the ocean one morning at sea.

We spent a good portion of our time out here on the balcony just watching the vastness of the ocean. God's handy work is amazing. I love this picture.
This is when we ported in Cozumel. We had a great time going through the streets and shopping. Then my honey and kids went off to zip line, rappel, and snorkel. They had a great time and I had a great time just relaxing. We also ported in Calica and went into Playa Del Carmen. It was fun.

Now for the not so great part, we had left our Shih Tzu, Beaux, with my mom. I will preface by saying that Beaux was extremely attached to our family and since we were going to be away for 6 days, we hated to leave him at the vet. We knew he would be depressed and didn't want it to go on for that long, bad decision. My mother said he did not eat or go to the bathroom for days. She said he crawled in a corner and snapped at her when she came close. On the fatal day she let him out in her fenced in back yard. He seemed to do better outside. Well, while she was at work he either dug out of the fence or climbed over. I am not sure which. He got in the road and was killed. I can not even begin to tell you how devastating this has been for our family. I think, as women, we have a natural need to baby something. I would love more real babies but do not have any so this was my families baby. He was my oldest daughter's 16th birthday present and we all loved him dearly. He slept with my daughter every night and went straight out to the barn with her every morning for chores. I made him an egg almost everyday of his life. He was rotten and I don't plan on doing that again, hence his separation anxiety. Anyway, this was Beaux and we love and miss him dearly.

The flip side to the horrifying accident is that my mother also cried for days. She knew how upset we would be and thought we would be mad at her. We were mad at ourselves for putting my mother in such a terrible predicament. I never thought that Beaux would act so terribly. I just wish in hindsight that we had taken him to the vet and boarded him. Although, I do think that God had a bigger lesson for us. I think we had put Beaux on such a pedestal that we also needed to learn a huge lesson.
Anyway, my mother thought the best thing to do was to find my daughter another Shih Tzu. So she drove to Memphis and got this little guy. If you have been in this situation, you know this just made it worse. Mother was just trying to make things better but we needed time to grieve. Not to mention, I probably would not have gotten this same breed again. They just get so attached. However, we took him so that she would not feel like we didn't appreciate the gesture or that we were mad. Oh, it has been hard. On several occasions I have accidentally called him Beaux, bringing us all to tears. His name is Murphy and he is now an 8 week old chocolate and white Shih Tzu. He is a cutey.
Before we left on vacation, we had decided to get this little guy. A friend of ours dog had puppies and my children had been around them since they were born. They had never really asked for one, as they knew I would say NO. However, my husband is leaving for a year and this is a good time to ask him for anything. So they did!! He explained to me that we need a good farm dog/watch dog. I have yet to see any real good farm dog qualities but I am on the look out for them.LOL However, on the watch dog front, I think he may be good for that, if not we have guns, and praise the Lord, he does not chase my chickens so far.
His name is Diesel and he is 1/4 blue heeler, 1/4 rottweiler, and 1/2 German Sheppard. I do have to admit he is kind of cute.

And here are the two of them together. They are about the same age and about 30 lbs. different.
We have also added 7 new baby chicks to the farm life. I really didn't need any, as I have eggs running out of my ears. I dropped off 2 dozen to a friend yesterday. However, I had lost all of my Americana chickens and I wanted some more blue and green eggs. So right now I have 7 baby chicks under a light in my laundry room. In about a week I will move them to a brooder box in the barn. I like to keep my eye on them for about a week first.
I guess that is about all that is going on around here. I have done some landscaping in the front and when I finish it I will post some pics. I have a long way to go to catch up to Mrs. Pickets beautiful yard. If you need inspiration go check out here beautiful pics.
I hope you all have a great day!!!

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basicliving@backtobasicliving.com said...

It makes me so sad to think of your husband being deployed and away from you. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers - and pray you all have the strength to endure this next year.

Your cruise sounds so wonderful. The pictures are just gorgeous.

I was just horrified to read about what happened to your poor little dog - for everyone involved! I feel so badly for your mom. I know she was just devastated.

The new puppies are just adorable! And you named the little shepherd mix Diesel! You know how much I love that name! Our little Diesel seems to love it too.

Take care,

Jen - Balancing beauty and bedlam said...

oh my dear friend - I can't even begin to tell you I know what you are going through. Our dog got hit by a car and that pain is bad enough, but knowing your husband is going to be gone is so difficult. it's ok to cry...I will be praying for strength, and checking in. Keep us updated.

Rhoda @ Southern Hospitality said...

Awww, Trixie, I'm so sorry your hubby has to leave and for losing your doggie too. Looks like you'll have your hands full with these 2 new ones though. I hope you & your family will grow to love them like your other doggie. Hugs!

JenIG said...

oh, I'm so sorry about the pup -- But I am glad that the new little puppy now has a new happy home to look forward to.

Still hard, tho.

The Berry's Patch said...

Oh Mrs. Trixi! I'm so sorry about your Beaux. It is such a terrible thing to go through.

I'm so thankful for your husband and his service to our country. It takes such courage to leave your home and family. What a GREAT man you have girl! I know you're going to miss him. You probably live a million miles away but if there is anything I could do please let me know.

Brandee :-)

Picket said...

Morning sweetie...I just don't know what to say....bless your heart...so many emotions at one time...I know I've already told you how I feel for you with your hubby's departure....that is an emotion on one's heart that truly only God can help see you thru...

I am so ...so sorry about your little furbaby...I cannot even imagine how horrified you dear mama must have felt....just remember she got the new puppy with all the best intentions and love for you..the two new furbabies are adorable & oh how I wish I could see and hold your new little baby chicks! lol...Thanks so the sweet comments my friend...but my little few flowers in the yard can't hold a candle to the beauty of God's nature you get to see & touch everyday there in the country...take care sweetie..everything will be fine!

Lady Katherine said...

Hi, Glad you stopped by, I have not seen a post on you, guess the update with blogger! So sorry about your puppy, and I know you are having it hard with your husband being deployed. So sweet he came for your Birthday. Happy Birthday! Sound like you have a lot to deal with. I will say a prayer for you daily.

gloria said...

I will be praying for you as you get closer to your husband's deployment. I can imagine this is a very difficult time for your family. Hang on to Jesus. He will see you thru this time.
I am also sorry to hear about your beloved dog. I hope these 2 new pups bring the kids & you some joy.
God bless you,
<>< john 3:16

Rue said...

I'm so sorry about Beaux. Your poor mom must have been beside herself! I know you didn't want another Shih Tzu, but Murphy is soooo cute. Diesel is adorable too!

I know you're hurting, but the new dogs and chickens should keep you very busy! LOL The cruise looked wonderful and I just know you had a great time.

I can't wait to see pics of your garden!



HeathahLee said...

Oh, Trixi, you are just on an emotional roller coaster, aren't you? I'm praying for you and your family, sweetie!

Those pups sure are cute! : )

PatinTenn said...

Hey Lady, I found you over here !!

I have missed your visits.

First, I remember when my father would deployed for like 16 months at a time while I was growing up. It is not easy but some how you get through the days.

I will stay in touch with you during this time, and try to help you through the days.

I am so sorry to hear about you losing your family pet. It is hard to move on with another one but even in this, God's grace is good.

Come by my place here at blogger for a visit.

Love ya,

kari and kijsa said...

we are so sad to think of the sacrifice you and your family are making for the country. Prayers for strength, peace, and patience. We were so sorry about the doggie too.
kari & kijsa

Shannon said...

You have had such a hard week! I am so sorry about your husband. I know that is probably the hardest thing. Also, I'm sorry about your dog. And your mom. She was probably so upset. The new puppies are adorable though!

Laurie said...

Thinking of you....
I can't imagine having my Honey gone for so long....you will be in our prayers. Thank you for your sacrifice.

How sad...losing Beaux...for all of you!

What a sweet thing..for your hubby to make that trip home to be with you. He's a keeper, most definitely!! :)

Anonymous said...

First, Thank-you to your husband for defending our country!
Second, I know how hard it will be for your family, missing him, while he is away.

The cruise pictures are great.
I am so sorry about little Beaux.
I understand how attached we get to our animal friends.
The new puppies are just as cute as bug's ears!

Good thoughts to you and your family from Georgia.

blessedmomto7 said...

Your poor puppy... We went on a cruise too last fall, it was amazing!